it ends tonight...

I loved my friend.

she went away from me,

There’s nothing more to say.

The poem ends,

Soft as it began

I loved my friend.

(Langston Hughes)

gayDar

what is it??? how do i know??? anyone??? help...

greeneraven

"... you are the only one who makes me extremely happy and extremely sad, all at the same time..."

if you could only see....

i have always wondered if she feels the same way for me???
am not really sure if there is something???
maybe it's just friendship???
or maybe it's all in my head???


if she could only see...

am here...

always here...

another day... in paradise...

everyday i go to work...
wake up...

prepare...

fix my hair...

no longer that happy with work...
but she's there...
she's what keeps me going...

looking forward to see her...
the smile...
that angelic face...
for the never ending conversations...
for those sweet little nothings...
for that most cherished embrace...

she's the one...
i know for sure...

My chronicled confessions 1

No names... just pure confessions...


i started feeling this way for her since 2006... for months, i have been hiding my feelings... i love her, i am in love with her...

i was on my own... never really cared... i know for a fact that i am unconventional... i just was not ready to accept it... i met her... i never liked her that much but she became my friend... so weird, we almost have the same likes and dislikes...

end of 2006... she was about to get married... me and my other friends, we were all clueless... we're not that close... she never mentioned anything about tying the knot... i guess she was a bit shy... considering the fact that we just started to hang out... somebody told us the news... i was sad... little did i know that she will drop the bomb later that night...

that night... god, it was the most painful night of my life... "what hurts the most" by rascal flatts, that was the song playing when she announced that she's getting married... i wanted to cry... our friends were really happy for her... i wasn't... i walked out and cried... and came back pretending that I was so happy... am not...

i told myself to let go of her... she got married... but as i try harder... my feelings for her grew stronger... i prayed and asked for guidance... i even asked god to give me signs... all the signs led to her and me being together... up until this day, i am still fighting my feelings...

sometimes, i think she knows... sometimes, i think she loves me too... maybe i am just daydreaming... we're so close... we talk a lot and we're really touchy to each other... most of the time we cuddle... we hug... we tease each other... even threat each other about kissing...

do you think she loves me too???

i wonder...